Words - not strong enough to communicate?

I am very bad in expressing my thoughts and feelings using words. And it all starts to go down wrong way starting from things coming out of very mouth - sort of like this: I know what I am thinking and feel it too, so I start talking to communicate those thoughts or opinions with others, often after not finding the "exact" words for my feelings or thoughts I end up using the words available out there, so there - this is the first stage of my thoughts getting modified. Then the person/people listening to me absorb what I said and start processing in them - my thoughts go through yet another phase of modification right there and this time I cant even tell how they are getting processed in somebody's head. The result being often time we are misunderstood.

Someday we will be able to upload our whole thoughts directly from our brain to others' or upload them on the web and we will be able to download them into our brain as they are. This just might eliminate a lot of misunderstanding, misleading which cause confusion, unhappiness, broken hearts etc.

"Words" is merely a way to make our thoughts audible which lacks the very much needed emotions that actually provoked those very thoughts in the first place- one has to be able to "feel" those emotions to understand the actual meaning of those thoughts.

Jan 14, Wednesday - 2008, Home

I decided to write a blog about my daily life. Growing up, I used to write a diary - (I said growing up, as if I am done growing up mentally - ugh, no side track or deep thoughts yet, I want to keep it simple at the beginning, at least on the very first blog of mine) - I wrote about simple stuff - mostly about how my day went that day - majority of which consisted of going to school, my friend circle - who said what and the effect of it :), studying, my mom, sometimes my cousins. I wrote till I was 18, I have the diary - a notebook. Today when I read my diary(sometimes), it feels like a whole different person wrote it, I feel compassionate with her. It is interesting to see how important and intense those simple little incidents were to me when I wrote them :). I am sure the same thing would happen when I read my blogs 10 years from today.

Ok, well nothing much happened today, I decided to cut my cable tv today - cause I was wasting a lot of time watching VH1, MTV, National Geography, Animal Planet, History, Disney, CNN - I just went to see if they actually did cancel it, and they did - I already miss my favorite shows :(:(. But this is good, I need to practice more how to pass time without depending on entertainment.
Then I mailed one letter(yeah mail) which I should have done a month ago :(. Btw, I am missing built in emoticons, without emoticons sometimes it is hard to express what I am trying to express.

Allright, that't it for tonight. I will see u tomorrow. Whoa, today is 14 th of Jan, ha? LOL. I couldn't have picked a better or worse day to start my diary! May be one of these days I will explain what I meant by this :). Ciao.