Kids Thoughts

As I watch my niece - who is six years old - the way she talks, and listens to "grown ups" and tries to learn from us - the grown ups amazes me. It also scares the hell out of me too. Because whatever we say they take it literally to heart. Kids at age 6 or younger don't know yet how stupidly gross and empty some grown ups mind can be. I hope and pray to Almighty God that when I become a parent, HE shows me the right ways, HIS ways to raise my kids. I would also like my kids to grow up in a place where they'll be surrounded by good hearted people and will be taught the right knowledge in schools. I would not like to confuse them by conflicting teachings - at home and in schools. It would be nice if their friends are also brought up with the similar kind of values - helping people in need, charity, religion and not about who has the latest technologies or the new cds, or the new clothes. God, help me be strong, controlled and to be on your righteous path NO MATTER WHAT and how difficult it gets.

Agile Web Development with Rails - 2nd Ed

I picked up the book by Dave Thomas snd David Heinemeier Hansson(Rail's creator) - Agile Web Development with Rails - 2nd Edition today. I plan to review the book while I am reading it. I am a slow reader, so yes it will take me longer to finish the book :).

So, I just finished reading the "Introduction" part of the book. And the thing I like about the book already that it uses shorter sentences to deliver an idea. I have found it always works effectively with me when the writer is using short sentences instead of long ones. With long sentences, I somehow forget what I was reading in the beginning of the sentence when I am at the tail end of it and end up having to read it once again. So to me, it is a great art when the writer uses short concise meaningful sentences in his/her book.

Allright, I am going to review the Ruby Language in Appendix A before installing the rails.

Little trivia: 5:30 in the morning - and the weather is just fantastic outside - perfect spring night. It just rained a bit a little ago. And I so feel like taking a quick puff - shame I know - if only I could control and then totally overcome all my weaknesses. Sighs.

People in my Life

I am feeling restless. I always did, which led me do many whimsical things in the past. I have been trying to calm myself for the last 2 years(yeah). I am afraid I have yet to master that skill. I always tend to mess things up when I am close to achieving something good. Does this mean I am impatient? Could be. When I reach the destination I'd been longing for so long, I tend to lose interest and start taking it for granted. Why can't I free myself of my weaknesses?

These are the people I will always remember very fondly: HMIH S, J Pu, RoFe, my friends Liz, Ov, Mu, Ru, Am,Pet, my cousin SH - when she was little - I adored her.

These are the people I hope to forget but I am afraid I probably won't be able to: KRR, Uj B, my classmate As. Talking about which I wish I was strong enough to politely avoid B Pu. Have you met some people who always pull you down? I would like to put her in that category :).

And my sincerest apologies to the aforementioned people, and also to Lir. Somehow I feel that I have caused each of them some pains.

Words - not strong enough to communicate?

I am very bad in expressing my thoughts and feelings using words. And it all starts to go down wrong way starting from things coming out of very mouth - sort of like this: I know what I am thinking and feel it too, so I start talking to communicate those thoughts or opinions with others, often after not finding the "exact" words for my feelings or thoughts I end up using the words available out there, so there - this is the first stage of my thoughts getting modified. Then the person/people listening to me absorb what I said and start processing in them - my thoughts go through yet another phase of modification right there and this time I cant even tell how they are getting processed in somebody's head. The result being often time we are misunderstood.

Someday we will be able to upload our whole thoughts directly from our brain to others' or upload them on the web and we will be able to download them into our brain as they are. This just might eliminate a lot of misunderstanding, misleading which cause confusion, unhappiness, broken hearts etc.

"Words" is merely a way to make our thoughts audible which lacks the very much needed emotions that actually provoked those very thoughts in the first place- one has to be able to "feel" those emotions to understand the actual meaning of those thoughts.

Jan 14, Wednesday - 2008, Home

I decided to write a blog about my daily life. Growing up, I used to write a diary - (I said growing up, as if I am done growing up mentally - ugh, no side track or deep thoughts yet, I want to keep it simple at the beginning, at least on the very first blog of mine) - I wrote about simple stuff - mostly about how my day went that day - majority of which consisted of going to school, my friend circle - who said what and the effect of it :), studying, my mom, sometimes my cousins. I wrote till I was 18, I have the diary - a notebook. Today when I read my diary(sometimes), it feels like a whole different person wrote it, I feel compassionate with her. It is interesting to see how important and intense those simple little incidents were to me when I wrote them :). I am sure the same thing would happen when I read my blogs 10 years from today.

Ok, well nothing much happened today, I decided to cut my cable tv today - cause I was wasting a lot of time watching VH1, MTV, National Geography, Animal Planet, History, Disney, CNN - I just went to see if they actually did cancel it, and they did - I already miss my favorite shows :(:(. But this is good, I need to practice more how to pass time without depending on entertainment.
Then I mailed one letter(yeah mail) which I should have done a month ago :(. Btw, I am missing built in emoticons, without emoticons sometimes it is hard to express what I am trying to express.

Allright, that't it for tonight. I will see u tomorrow. Whoa, today is 14 th of Jan, ha? LOL. I couldn't have picked a better or worse day to start my diary! May be one of these days I will explain what I meant by this :). Ciao.